So, I have set some goals and some projects for this period of "suspended animation." Some of them just make sense: for example, I've decided to grow my hair out, and when you start from a short 'do like mine, that involves a couple of months of really awkward looking hair. =P But, for the first time since my mission, I really have no reason to look good for anybody, so voila ... perfect timing!
But they're not all just scalp-deep. =P I've also chosen some weaknesses of mine that I really want to address. One of them is my tendency to focus on tomorrow rather than today. It's a tricky balance, because obviously we should be constantly striving for a better tomorrow, and that involves preparation and planning and forethought. But I acknowledge that sometimes (often?) this leads me to focus on the destination rather than the journey. So I have adopted a new motto: LIVE TODAY!!
Unfortunately, I probably couldn't have picked a more challenging time to work on this. =/ It goes without saying that divorce is not the happiest time of anybody's life. But even more than that, I really feel trapped here in this house. Suffocating. It would be soooooooo easy to just retreat under the covers and say "wake me up when the job offer comes." I have to look forward to getting my own life started, and everything that entails.
Any suggestions? That's not a rhetorical question ... seriously, any suggestions?
Oh, and speaking of suggestions, I still have to decide just how long I should go. I kept it permed most of the time that it was really long, so I had to go all the way back to the mission to find this pic ...
Or, in a darker version, we have my UVA hair ...
I also quite liked my wedding hair ...
Or the quickest & easiest would be my sealing hair ...
Input appreciated here as well. But mostly I want to hear about how to live TODAY better, even when today isn't exactly the highlight of my mortal experience. =)
You need to do things that fill your cup up, that make you feel happy. Also, I've found that exercise is key for me. The endorphins & energy that I get from it are matched no other way -- even if it's just walking, get out & move. And if you can do it with a friend, even better. I go to SJ Rec pretty much every morning (about 8:30-9:00 am) after my kids are at school & you are welcome to join me. :) I think it helps to talk to someone too, especially as women we need that -- like a form of therapy for me. Additionally, get outdoors & enjoy this beautiful weather (while you can)! It's amazing how enjoying nature or just having the sun on your face can lift your mood. I know it must be extremely difficult to be back in a house that doesn't feel like home to you. Make sure to take care of yourself & surround yourself with goodness. Good music, good books, good food, good friends, good things. And call me if you need an out. I'm game for just about anything & need to get away from it all sometimes too. Hang in there & take it one hour at a time right now. You are heading down a different road right now & it will take some getting used to. :)
ReplyDeleteSorry about writing a book there -- didn't know I had so much to say & hard to tell on my phone how much I'm writing! ;)
ReplyDeleteSealing day hair is my vote too. I came across a quote on an adoption blog I read, it is fitting for your post, go to:
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Sealing hairas far as length. Professional, still lots of stuff you can do with it, and flattering with your hair thickness and consistency (fine-ness isn't really a word . . . lol)
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