Wednesday, September 21, 2011

A bit like starting a diet on Thanksgiving ...

So, I have set some goals and some projects for this period of "suspended animation."  Some of them just make sense:  for example, I've decided to grow my hair out, and when you start from a short 'do like mine, that involves a couple of months of really awkward looking hair. =P  But, for the first time since my mission, I really have no reason to look good for anybody, so voila ... perfect timing! 

But they're not all just scalp-deep. =P  I've also chosen some weaknesses of mine that I really want to address.  One of them is my tendency to focus on tomorrow rather than today.  It's a tricky balance, because obviously we should be constantly striving for a better tomorrow, and that involves preparation and planning and forethought.  But I acknowledge that sometimes (often?) this leads me to focus on the destination rather than the journey.  So I have adopted a new motto:  LIVE TODAY!!



Unfortunately, I probably couldn't have picked a more challenging time to work on this. =/  It goes without saying that divorce is not the happiest time of anybody's life.  But even more than that, I really feel trapped here in this house.  Suffocating.  It would be soooooooo easy to just retreat under the covers and say "wake me up when the job offer comes."  I have to look forward to getting my own life started, and everything that entails.

Any suggestions?  That's not a rhetorical question ... seriously, any suggestions? 

Oh, and speaking of suggestions, I still have to decide just how long I should go.  I kept it permed most of the time that it was really long, so I had to go all the way back to the mission to find this pic ...


Or, in a darker version, we have my UVA hair ...


I also quite liked my wedding hair ...






Or the quickest & easiest would be my sealing hair ...


Input appreciated here as well.  But mostly I want to hear about how to live TODAY better, even when today isn't exactly the highlight of my mortal experience. =)

4 comments:

  1. You need to do things that fill your cup up, that make you feel happy. Also, I've found that exercise is key for me. The endorphins & energy that I get from it are matched no other way -- even if it's just walking, get out & move. And if you can do it with a friend, even better. I go to SJ Rec pretty much every morning (about 8:30-9:00 am) after my kids are at school & you are welcome to join me. :) I think it helps to talk to someone too, especially as women we need that -- like a form of therapy for me. Additionally, get outdoors & enjoy this beautiful weather (while you can)! It's amazing how enjoying nature or just having the sun on your face can lift your mood. I know it must be extremely difficult to be back in a house that doesn't feel like home to you. Make sure to take care of yourself & surround yourself with goodness. Good music, good books, good food, good friends, good things. And call me if you need an out. I'm game for just about anything & need to get away from it all sometimes too. Hang in there & take it one hour at a time right now. You are heading down a different road right now & it will take some getting used to. :)

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  2. Sorry about writing a book there -- didn't know I had so much to say & hard to tell on my phone how much I'm writing! ;)

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  3. Sealing day hair is my vote too. I came across a quote on an adoption blog I read, it is fitting for your post, go to:

    http://www.therhouse.com/page/3/

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  4. Sealing hairas far as length. Professional, still lots of stuff you can do with it, and flattering with your hair thickness and consistency (fine-ness isn't really a word . . . lol)

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